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What is a spiritual recovery program and did it work for me.

I walked in to the recovery thinking and even feeling that Gambling controlled my life and my thinking.

What would cause me to go and waste my time and energy doing some thing that would hurt me and other people.

Would the spiritual recovery program work for me if I was a non religious person.

Yes it did and I understand that my spiritual values were all a part of my own conscience.

When I would go against my spiritual values I would hurt myself and other people.

It is stated in the spiritual recovery program it is not important to know why I gambled.

That did not sit well with me.

It was also implied that pride was an unhealthy thing.

Today and by being dedicated to the spiritual recovery program my actions and words are healthy and I am proud of who I am today and what I am today.

By me working the spiritual recovery program the rewards for being healthy is pride.

The wording I have to implied to me that my thinking was obsessive.

So today I have a healthier way of thinking, I write own my wants, I write own my needs, and I write own my goals.

The truth what is the spiritual recovery program for for, it is about wanting to become healthy in every way.

The spiritual recovery program helped me learn that I was not a stupid person, that I was not a evil person, that I was just emotionally vulnerable.

What were my emotional triggers, why did I escape people life and situations when I felt I could not cope.

My addictions and obsessions were very much fear based issues.

Every pain in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand or acknowledge.

Turning to my addictions and obsessions were ways of me escaping.

The wording fake it till you make it did not wring true with me.

The spiritual recovery program helped me understand that faking deceptions and lies were not healthy in my recovery.

The spiritual recovery program helped me recognize that not only did I hurt and betray other people, but I also I hurt and betrayed myself much more.

The spiritual recovery program helped me understand that only by abstaining from all unhealthy habits could my healing even start to happen.

By me being in the spiritual recovery program helped me abstain from gambling, abstain from smoking another form of self abuse, abstain from getting drunk another form of self abuse, helped me abstain from abusive language, helped me abstain from drinking tea and coffee.

A spiritual recovery program would help me become the person I wanted to be.

A spiritual recovery program would help me become the healthy person I knew I could be.

When ever I try to justify my words or actions I know that I am not being healthy.

Today I have the choice to react in unhealthy ways to people life and situations or to interact in unhealthy ways to people life and situations.

It is very rare for me to be angry these days,  it is very rare for me to be impatient and intolerant with myself and others these days, 

Do I measure how healthy I am by time off gambling, do I measure how healthy I am by our bank account balance, do I measure how healthy I am by my productivity, do I measure how healthy I am by the things I achieve today, or do do I measure how healthy I am by my relationship with myself and other people today.

Do I face my fears today.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham