Anon
14-02-2010, 11:59 AM
Hi all, I just want to thank you all for posting these stories. I'm 33, married to a beautiful woman, but thatâs as far as it goes. My wife is leaving and buying a house on her own because once again I broke my promise. Like many of you, I started on fruit machines when I was very young which then went on to the highly addictive roulette machines and online gambling. I thought I could control it as I don't wake up and think "I need to gamble", or dream about it, so I wasnât as bad as someone who does. What lies I've been telling myself. My whole world is collapsing around me; I've no money as I am paying off payday loans that I needed to get, because I'd spent my wages on gambling.
My wife is living her own life in front of me and I have nothing to convince her to stay, she's full of resentment and doesn't trust me as far as she can throw me. She reminds me of the rotten things I've done in the past, which I stupidly expect her to forget about. I need to change and reading these messages has pointed me in a direction of pure positiveness. I even feel better already, because it's the first time I've been honest with myself in years. I've checked where and when my nearest meeting is and have asked my wife to come with me, which she has agreed to. So thanks for all your honesty people and I wish you all well.
My wife is living her own life in front of me and I have nothing to convince her to stay, she's full of resentment and doesn't trust me as far as she can throw me. She reminds me of the rotten things I've done in the past, which I stupidly expect her to forget about. I need to change and reading these messages has pointed me in a direction of pure positiveness. I even feel better already, because it's the first time I've been honest with myself in years. I've checked where and when my nearest meeting is and have asked my wife to come with me, which she has agreed to. So thanks for all your honesty people and I wish you all well.