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Full Version: I Hope it's finally sinking in....that I have to stop
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Yesterday I cashed a money order. I put some in the bank and walked into the casino with some. I played the slot machines and lost. I ran back to the car and got the remainder of my money. I lost that and went to the ATM and took out more and lose that. I lost a lot in a matter of a few hours. It's so foolish; how hard I worked to save that money to only throw it away.

This was yesterday and today I am feeling down on myself and don't want to get out of bed.

If I win I lose because I play it all back. If I lose, I lose, so why is it so hard to stop?

I scrimp and save and then throw money away like a fool. I've been fooling myself by saying I will just play my free play and leave, but that never happens. If I win a little at one casino, which rarely happens I take it to another casino and lose it. I don't have a drinking problem but like an Alcoholic I don't know how to stop.

I know I am out of control and I will have to try to get to a meeting when there is a close one scheduled.