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I thought i had it beat..... - Guest - 12-03-2010

Ive been to rock bottom through my gambling and have already had to confess all to my parents and am still involved in an IVA to sort out my financial woes but i still gamble, and recently it has started to spiral out of control once again.

In the past i gambled money i couldnt afford to lose and my life suffered for a while because of these losses. Even after sorting my financial state out with the IVA i still would have the odd big bet but stayed clear of the online casinos.

I felt a weight lifted back in 2006 and i suppose was halfway there but the fact that i`m here now means that i have not succeded fully.

My current situation has not seen me lose money that i dont have and in that respect i am thankful i stopped but the amount of bets i make on all sorts of things is rising rapidly and my thought process is becoming twisted when gambling is involved.

Earlier on in the week i won a tidy sum of cash on the online casino. Planning to go travelling so bit of extra money could help.
Before i knew it i was hundreds down. It didnt stop me so i put in another ammount and within half an hour was back all sqaure. i remember this great feeling that i had beaten the system and had a lucky escape...... If only, i am writing this now just a few hundred down and for the first time admitting to myself that my problem is serious and something that i can no longer afford to take lightly.

I am desperate not go back to the dark days and i dont think i can do it alone now

Re: I thought i had it beat..... - Guest - 15-03-2010

Gidday numbers

Well, you have already done a few of the hard yards. Confessed you have a problem. Admitted to your family. Put some procedures in place to pay off some debts. (I am from Australia so I am assuming that is what an IVA is.)

How about fixing the REAL problem. You! <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: -->

GA is a tool that will help you stop if you WANT to. Go along to a few meetings and talk to some of the members. Your problems haven't even started yet. You will be amazed at how quickly you can spiral into a deeper hole. <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: -->

You have to be honest with yourself...Do you really want to stop?...or are you just feeling sorry for yourself, and tomorrow's another day...another chance for the big win?

Like any addiction, you have to WANT to stop to give yourself the best opportunity to do so. That is why so many New Year resolutions never work out. People say they will do this or that, but really it's just wishful thinking. <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> You have to put the effort in.

Hope you do attend GA, they can help.

Best wishes