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where has it got me? - ty - 13-08-2010
Hi there. I've been gambling for around six years, winning lots but losing lots more. I'm now at a stage where my debts are a real issue due to playing the machines in the bookies. Where has it got me? Nowhere; yesterday was the last straw for me. My head is hurting and I'm not sure how I'm going to dig myself out of this hole. Yesterday, I lost my entire wages, and now I can't believe I've really put myself in this position again. I've said before you can't beat the machines but always think it will just give me a little win to help out. Now I know there is no point. I might have to struggle for a few months before getting back on track but continuing to play will keep me struggling forever. I feel better sharing my story and want to keep in contact with others who are ready to really give up a life of pain.
Re: where has it got me? - metooyou - 14-08-2010
I know how you feel, I have just lost a few pounds again, I know it dosnt sound much but it adds up, and It wouldve been better used elsewhere! I dont spend vast amounts of money, but it really irritates me when I cant win!!! <!-- s
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Re: where has it got me? - Guest - 16-08-2010
@ ty. Hi! This is really true for me too. I can remember when i was younger going down the local club with my mum and she played the fruities. One night i can remember her winning . It was only me, mum and my sister so that was a huge amount of money. You had to be 18 to play so as soon as i reached 18 i was there on my 18th birthday playing the machines. I guess thats how i got hitched to gambling. I then started losing my weeks wages. I'd sit at a machine and keep feeding it hoping i'd walk out with more than i went in with. Sometimes i did but 90% i'd walk out with nothing. I'd feel sick. It lasted a few days then i'd go back to work and do it again and again. That was 14 years ago and i have a wife and 4 beautiful children now. But im still gambling. Not to the excess i was but its still there. Its the buzz of getting that win when you least expect it. My wife knows i gamble but not how much. I hate myself for it. I want to stop completely. I gave up smoking just over 2 years ago so i know i have the will power. I feel better for sharing this and hope im not the only one. Cheers for listening <!-- s
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