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Why fear being Honest

Each time I lied I went against my own conscience more fears grew in me.

Why fear being Honest.

As a child when ever I was honest I was punished for it by physical abuse, emotional abuse, or redicule.

I also feared being honest because I feared being rejected or being abandoned.

How could I come to not fear being honest and feeling emotionally vulnerable.

When I walked in to the recovery program who did I fear facing the most, myself.

Over time I would understand that I was not an evil person, I was not dumb or stupid, I was not a bad person.

Yet I would not be honest to myself about the twenty questions.

The recovery program helped me over come my fears, helped me get honest with myself.

The twenty questions never changed but my answers did change and more so in understanding the depth of each question.

The recovery program helped me open up and not live in so many fears.

The recovery program helped me understand no one was going to fix me or heal me that would be my choice.

I am a non religious and today I understand that when I walked in to the recovery program I was emotionally traumatized, not just because of self abuse in my addictions and my obsessions but more importantly heal from the abuse I suffered as a child.

Dysfunctional insecure people want to keep secrets and lies, a healthy family wants an open honest interactions with all people.

Dysfunctional insecure people will justify causing pain to other people.  

Dysfunctional people are unable to be healthy and free from the pains of their past.

I am a non religious person, yet I am a healthier spiritual person.

The longer I was the recovery program my fears dropped and my trust grew.

The longer I was the recovery program the healthier I got.

The rewards for being a much healthier spiritual person is pride in oneself.

Am I honest to myself today.

Am I accountable to myself today.

When I am honest to myself I am able to apologize if I adversely affect another person.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham.

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Why fear being Honest - by gadaveuk - 18-07-2019, 05:08 PM
RE: Why fear being Honest - by gadaveuk - 12-09-2019, 03:39 PM
RE: Why fear being Honest - by gadaveuk - 13-09-2019, 09:15 AM

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