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(05-08-2020, 10:04 AM)JoshE123 Wrote: Its been a bit of while since I have posted on here, but I am glad to say I am still abstaining from Gambling. Reflecting back to my last period of abstinence before my relapse, I think I'd have to say this period has been more difficult despite my posts not reflecting that. I've not gambled or thought of gambling, but I think this time around its been more difficult because I haven't been able to attend physical meetings. Having that reminder for me initially 2-3 a week in the earlier stages was key last time around. I've not had that in place this time around, but during the periods where I would have been at meetings, I've ensured I have dedicated this time to person development such as Reading GA literature, reading in general and listening to Podcasts. Whilst these have helped, I know that nothing helps more than going to a physical meeting.

I'm over the 2 month mark now for my non gambling. During that time I have felt sometimes better in myself and sometimes worse. I am a person who worries quite a lot and somebody who reflects on the past an awful lot. I know these are things I cannot change and I know these are things that I need to let go off. I'm trying to rebuild my life one day at a time and keep myself as positive as I can be so I don't slip back into those old destructive ways. I keep the 90 day milestone in my head and keep promising myself just for today!  

My last bet was the 3rd June 2020, long may that continue.

Hi

For me it was important to face each of my fears.

What is the very worst that can happen.

I had a cancer surgery and knew about it 3 months before the operation.

What is worst that could happen having cancer surgery loss of arm, loss of use of arm or I could die.

Worrying about things does not change things at all.

My fears caused me to go in to panic mode where I would say or do some thing I regretted after wards.

Most of my fears were 10 out of 10.

These days my fears remain in single figures.

I understand that each of my fears were due to the pains of my past.

With less fear comes more trusting.

With more trusting comes more intimacy.

With less fear comes more living in today

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham
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Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 11-06-2020, 10:42 AM
RE: Relapse.... - by smartie - 16-06-2020, 12:05 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 17-06-2020, 07:13 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by gadaveuk - 19-06-2020, 07:26 AM
RE: Relapse.... - by StrengthToStop - 20-06-2020, 10:57 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 25-06-2020, 12:56 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 08-07-2020, 07:50 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by gadaveuk - 13-07-2020, 04:20 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 05-08-2020, 10:04 AM
RE: Relapse.... - by gadaveuk - 09-12-2020, 08:52 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by smartie - 17-08-2020, 02:01 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 18-08-2020, 01:50 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 07-09-2020, 02:05 PM
RE: Relapse.... - by JoshE123 - 29-09-2020, 03:05 PM
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