Do I need to attend meetings?

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I have been gambling for a year abouts, my husband has known for a few months. I keep telling him I will stop, but I suppose I cant. My husband doesnt know what to say to me, just,'I will end up leaving you'.
I really hate group meetings and am also diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder.
What can I do to help myself? Is it absolutely nessecary to attend meetings? I feel so guilty and sorry for what I am doing, but feel I have little control over it. Any suggestions please? Thanks for reading.