I need help

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Many thanks for your kind words David, I did not read them until blowing yet more money on my lunch hour from work on Monday. I then read your post and was instantly struck by it, although the demons took another chunk from me this lunchtime too <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_sad.gif" alt="" title="Sad" /><!-- s --> . But on the positive side, the small amount I put in today made me feel sick and after losing it all I walked out into the sunlight and thought 'Enough'. I have had this feeling before but with the sun out today it felt a lot stronger.

I also have got a rewards card for a certain bookies which I have decided I will cut up and throw away the next time I am anywhere near the bookies. I have been reflecting recently on how bad my addiction has become, thinking I would now feel guilty just playing on penny machines at the seaside.

I will definitely be going to a GA meet as soon as I can (By the end of this month at the latest, before my next pay), Sheffield is a little far for me but Leeds or Wakefield are 2 ideal locations for me.

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