08-04-2010, 12:06 AM
Hi - i too put money in machines - way too much. I have a seperate account from my husband and he does not know how much i earn so as long as the bills that i am responsible for are paid he does not suspect anything. I earn hundreds per month more than he thinks and that is how much i put in the machines every month, some months it is more and i lie and ask him for money from our building society account - i tell him that it is to lend to my mother or my friends and he always gets it for me and then i have to pay it back over the next few months so those months i have less to gamble with. Ocassionally i win so that tides me over. You need to stop before your addiction starts affecting your ability to pay bills for your flat - i know that i am a right one to talk but i have been like this for 20 years - i cannot stop and have finally come to this site in the hope of finding help. Most of the time i do it when i am bored - thats all it is. I have software on my computer to stop me going on internet sites but wish i could remove the fruit machine places in my town!!