trying to stay clean

[andy again]

Ive took your info about doing the boring choires.I hate gardening,I hate cleaning my house even though Im quite tidy.Nobody ever sees it or visits me so why should I bother,these boring mundane choires give me no enjoyment or pleasure whatso ever.Neither does any single thing I do in life.I dont do any fun stuff and now that ive gone and gambled a whole 9 months mortgage payments in 1 afternoon in the stinking bookies,everything is even more pointless than it already was.Its a totally hopeless situation and my rage is indescribable.I went to a meeting last night,Im not sure why,because I will never be anything other than a complete LOSER.
Andy.