trying to stay clean

[andy the loser again]

Thanks for all your comments and offers.I have taken on board all your information and I accept that I will always be a compulsive gambler.As for the financial side of things I dont care any more ive sunk and its only a matter of time before Im oput on the street when ive lost another house.The pressure of the financial stress is too much and I resign to just giving it all up.I just want a normal life with no money and no worries and some kind of happiness.Im never going to find it here,so for today I dont even know what to do any more.I will probably end up gambling today because I have time,and ive already lost a fortune this week so I dont care any more its all gone,whatever I can lay my hands on I will and go and blow it,and escape in to my dream world.Dont care any more.