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beaten again
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Thank you Roy for all your continued support and very kind and true words.Yes everything you say is correct and if youve been through it all you know.But when your head is clear you can see from the other side,whereas when you are in this state,like I am yet again,you just cant see any hope.And despite what you say it doesnt bother me that I dont see any of the "beautiful things in life".Nothing means anything to me now or even a couple of weeks ago when I was clean,everything still felt hopeless.Now that ive gone and made it even worse than hopeless I find it nearly impossible to face another day.Every day I wake up and wish myself dead,1 day it will come true.Not the way to be,but gambling has me licked,beaten and killed me.So called life was almost impossible as it was,but now,I have no idea what Im going to do.I went to a GP today and went to Ga meeting 2 days ago,and yes ive been in a worse position than even now.But the only trouble was that I hadnt abstained for 10 months and this time feels even worse than ever.
Anyway I thank you for everything and appreciate your words of help.
Andy.
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beaten again - by andy compulsive gambler - 21-05-2010, 02:59 AM
Re: beaten again - by metroplex - 22-05-2010, 09:19 AM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 22-05-2010, 11:42 AM
Re: beaten again - by carlonvi - 22-05-2010, 03:36 PM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 22-05-2010, 09:02 PM
Re: beaten again - by andy again - 22-05-2010, 09:56 PM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 23-05-2010, 11:35 PM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 24-05-2010, 11:32 AM
Re: beaten again - by andy again - 25-05-2010, 09:07 PM
Re: beaten again - by andy again - 25-05-2010, 09:17 PM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 26-05-2010, 01:05 PM
Re: beaten again - by andy again - 26-05-2010, 09:10 PM
Re: beaten again - by Guest - 27-05-2010, 12:29 PM

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