08-06-2010, 03:25 AM
40 years old. On and off at GA for 20 years. Always thought I could handle it. Currently abroad and have gone down the same road yet again. The last month has been a frenzy in all honesty. Massive highs and bigger lows. It is not like I do not know what I should do. Not even sure why I am posting as I can predict what the replies will be. Useless. Why can I not get it -have got it before and probably can get it again but not at the moment. The shame is overwhelming at the moment but know it will pass and then convince myself to go out and right all the wrongs but create more problems. Posting may arrest it but no guarantee. I obviously need a meeting even though I have not been for quite a while (arrrogance). If anyone from Worthing GA is reading you may know who I am. All the answers but no solutions.