18-06-2010, 05:46 PM
3 weeks now, thought this was a breeze giving up, royal ascot this week read every page in the paper apart from the racing section until now today took a sneaky peak at yesterdays results felt really guilty. (probably would have had that horse oh and that one) never had a bet but felt guilty about looking. friends i had for a long time dont seem to be calling after i told them i was never gonna bet ever again maybe i'm getting paranoid.previously people phoning always started the conversation with hello tim hows your luck (usually followed by rubbish) i passed a bookie's today somewhere nobody would ever know me could let slip to the wife ,and for a split second i considered going in only to think if i do i'll lose my missus and kids that aint gonna happen i need to go to g.a this week get some stuff off my chest otherwise someone is gonna feel the wrath of my anger and frustration only the last couple of days has this come about hopefully tomorrow i'll wake up happy again