28-06-2010, 06:48 PM
hi thankyou for your reply, I know what i need to do, but the temptation is overwhelming. The online gambling has stopped thanks to the blocker. but i have a laptop that i use in the kitchen for tv/online movies that hasnt the blocker on, now, iv only nearly logged on once, but its very slow and my husband walked in so i closed the window and forgot about it. Its scared me that i almost did it and knew it was stupid.
That was the day after i wrote this post , i just dont know what goes on in my head.
I pass the amusement arcade daily, with and without my daughter today i had no intention of wanting to go in, although its on my mind, i shouldnt even be thinking about it, i walked passed and didnt look, tried to look 'normal'
Its all like a curse. Id like these feelings to stop, will they ever?
That was the day after i wrote this post , i just dont know what goes on in my head.
I pass the amusement arcade daily, with and without my daughter today i had no intention of wanting to go in, although its on my mind, i shouldnt even be thinking about it, i walked passed and didnt look, tried to look 'normal'
Its all like a curse. Id like these feelings to stop, will they ever?