12-07-2010, 06:55 PM
I'm Andy, a compulsive gambler and i've managed to make it 50 days today without a bet. But everything is worse by miles now,even though I havent gambled. I have no work,no income and I'm just drowning in debt and the tunnel of darkness I'm in is unrelenting. All because of the last gambling binge I had some 8 weeks ago. The damage i've done is really hitting more now as all the credit card bills have got far bigger and even harder to get out of. This is all without gambling,it is so,so crap but who else have I to blame except my stupid self. I think about gambling every day,and that is why I'm in this world of darkness,with a bleak and black future ahead,as I said some 20 years ago.I feel unbelievably bad,because all this life of misery is just sufference.I've been to meetings and try and attend as much as possible,but I couldn't even afford petrol to put in my car to get there Sunday,this is not life.Andy