11-08-2010, 07:40 AM
81 days bet free today,and still in the same rut.Every day just stumbles in to the next and life and time is passing me by,but I just cannot find anything in life to give me entusiasm still.I have been attending the ga meetings and although I havent gambles for 81 days,I do not feel like Ive made any progress whatsoever.I feel beyond help and beyond hope.Life hasnt got any worse,but it most definately hasnt got better.I try to get up in the morning and see some kind of reason to carry on,but every day is the same and nothing makes me want to carry on.Ive been in this merry go round of hell for many years,but the last 2/3 years has got worse.I still dont want to gamble and hope I dont give in again,but all I can say is that today I havent gambled.Andy.