where has it got me?

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@ ty. Hi! This is really true for me too. I can remember when i was younger going down the local club with my mum and she played the fruities. One night i can remember her winning . It was only me, mum and my sister so that was a huge amount of money. You had to be 18 to play so as soon as i reached 18 i was there on my 18th birthday playing the machines. I guess thats how i got hitched to gambling. I then started losing my weeks wages. I'd sit at a machine and keep feeding it hoping i'd walk out with more than i went in with. Sometimes i did but 90% i'd walk out with nothing. I'd feel sick. It lasted a few days then i'd go back to work and do it again and again. That was 14 years ago and i have a wife and 4 beautiful children now. But im still gambling. Not to the excess i was but its still there. Its the buzz of getting that win when you least expect it. My wife knows i gamble but not how much. I hate myself for it. I want to stop completely. I gave up smoking just over 2 years ago so i know i have the will power. I feel better for sharing this and hope im not the only one. Cheers for listening <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt="" title="Very Happy" /><!-- s -->