10-09-2010, 11:43 AM
i am writing this post today as i feel totally out of control. i have lost alot of money in the past couple of weeks. even when i am winning i just throw it all back into the machines. i tend to play on the blackjack and roulette machines.
why i play on these machines is beyond me. i am a successful proffessional, however i throw all of my earnings into these machines and try to live off nothing. i make my life so hard doing this.
i have gambled for around 6 years now. it became a problem about 3 years ago. i have had spells where i have managed to stay away however. after so long it keeps pulling me back. there is no GA meeting in my area. i feel totally out of control.
i cant tell my partner as i fear she will leave me. i dont really know where to turn for help. i would like to attend meetings however due to my busy schedule and lack of GA meeting in my area this is difficult.
why i play on these machines is beyond me. i am a successful proffessional, however i throw all of my earnings into these machines and try to live off nothing. i make my life so hard doing this.
i have gambled for around 6 years now. it became a problem about 3 years ago. i have had spells where i have managed to stay away however. after so long it keeps pulling me back. there is no GA meeting in my area. i feel totally out of control.
i cant tell my partner as i fear she will leave me. i dont really know where to turn for help. i would like to attend meetings however due to my busy schedule and lack of GA meeting in my area this is difficult.