12-10-2010, 12:54 PM
Im Andy,a compulsive gambler and have now gone 142 days free of gambling.I dont know how I manage it some days as ive never replaced it really,I just scrape through each day,and my boredom levels have never been as hiogh as now.Im still bored with everything,bored of fighting each day,just to survive,I am very depressed as usual,dont seem to know any other way.I havent been to any GA meetings for over 6 weeks,not good I know,but Im so broke,I can barely put food on the table,and this is all WITHOUT gambling.Im never tempted at the moment because Im in so much financial mess from the damage I did 142 days ago,I couldnt even afford 1 slip,not that I ever could,but now I guess my head is straighter,but hell knows its so hard,I struggle every day and there is never a good day in my life.Im always broke,and always when I do ever get the luxury of having any money,its food or bills?And of course,bills always win.I never wanted things to be easy,just it would be nice if they were less hard,but never are.My name is Andy and I havent gambled today.