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one da at a time
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im geoff and im a compulsive gambler that i have known for many years.i first went ga 4 years ago after trouble with the police for the way i behaved mostly towards my familly/no job that was lost after11 years at the same company/money/time lost i would spend several hundred every day in the bookies and all the time out of it wa consumed by when and what my next bet would be..my relationships hadall broke down i wa kicked out of my house by my parents i had quite a bit of dby no freinds etc and i thought i ws worthless.i managed with the help of ga to get 19 months abstanace but since then i have had 2 days betting in th last 3 and half months.i have strugled with the guilt of that as my mum and dad have been brilliant to me they always make sure i have a little extra money to go ga if i need it(i go 4 or 5 times a week),my sister looks afer my money takes me out and kees me busy.i now go collage,hollidays,gym,clothe,friends,peace of mind,sanity,happyness etc.
i take my illness and problems a day at a time gambling left me with severe depression but that is under controll with my tablets.i now know its just the momment i have to controll not the past or future.i regret i slipped but i go again i have tightened my blocks access to money from a little to only what i need,reading my ga book more,teling people i can never be fully trusted its hurts to ay but it is very true,i speak to my freinds which include a members.i am keeping my head up and when i struggle i try to remember that i ill and can get through it,also weni have the urgeto gamble its ok thinking it but very very wrong to do it as i know how i act when i gamble in fact the last tim i gambled i lied mrore in that day than i had in 2 years.so tody i will a just or today i willnot gamble and i will follow some of the 12 steps i will look as good as i can ,take the message to other c-gamblers,right my wrongs s and whenineed to etc.
lastly my recovery would not be like this if it wasnt fo ga,s support.thank you.
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one da at a time - by geoff - 14-10-2010, 02:54 PM
Re: one da at a time - by geoff - 15-10-2010, 12:01 AM
Re: one da at a time - by Guest - 17-10-2010, 07:38 PM
Re: one da at a time - by DAVE W - 18-10-2010, 04:29 PM
Re: one da at a time - by helen - 20-10-2010, 10:53 AM

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