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Relapse again
Hi there. I am a compulsive gambler and have been fighting this disease for about 3 years now. I have not gambled for about 2 months and then last night I was bored. Alone at home. Nothing to do and all of these urges came flooding into my head.

I kept telling myself not to gamble. Not to do Anything. But the urges got stronger and stronger. I got changed and went to the casino. Was there for about 3 hours fromthe start chasing losses.

I feel like such an idiot. I have a good job and have spent the past few months getting out of my overdraft saving money for Christmas and holidays and have blown it all. I feel pathertic that a gambling addiction has more power over my brain than I have.

There are no meetings near to where I live so I have to do this on my own. One day at a time. I cannot say that yesterday will be the last time I will gamble as I have promised myself that so many times. However I am going to try my best.

I feel gutted. But. I will recover and I will sort my life out again.

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Relapse again - by Lt - 27-11-2010, 06:36 PM
Re: Relapse again - by Barrieexgambler - 28-11-2010, 04:24 AM

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