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I Want to Control It
Hey Jack,
Sound familiar?? erm yeah!!

Your 22 right?? not a biggy yet! is losing a few grand in a night an issue? is 1pence ?

Jack i will stop talking in riddles, I am a compulsive gambler. That means my mind played tricks on me, made me question Can I do it??Can I just control it?? Oh I get paid on friday its not that bad?

Fred, tim and geoff bet why cant I??

I am at my lowest my mind would say, so deppressed, I just lost 2grand.

That low was every other week, losing, chasing, situation, bigger situation, drama, bigger drama.

Then eventually I woke up and smelt the coffee...I cannot gamble, why, because pence will become pounds, pounds will become pence, food will become no food.

And instead I started to say "just for today I will not gamble"

Thats my life now....

because "god granted me the serenity to accept the things I couldnt change the courage to change the things I could and the wisdom to know the difference"

I suggest instead of thinking about what is lost you find a way to understand this desease and what it can do to you and start to live that day at a time.



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I Want to Control It - by jackarmy1688 - 06-12-2010, 04:01 AM
Re: I Want to Control It - by Barrieexgambler - 06-12-2010, 10:53 PM

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