16-03-2011, 09:04 PM
Hi everyone
Not sure what response if any i am looking for but sad to say i had a bet today after 5 years 4 months away from the horses today i cracked, looked at the racing pages of the newspaper and bookies website and bet, only a fairly insignificant amount that i can afford to lose but as im sure you appreciate this is not the point, i let myself down badly and im not sure how much i actually care right now but i know i should care a lot, i should feel angry with myself but i don't...im not tempted to bet again or chase but just so annoyed that i bet after so long being successful...before anyone tells me to go to a meeting i have to say im a live in carer working 90 hours per week and sleeping at work 7 nights per week so truly no time to get to a meeting regardless of time or day...just need a wake up call or some wise words i guess,
thanks
John
Not sure what response if any i am looking for but sad to say i had a bet today after 5 years 4 months away from the horses today i cracked, looked at the racing pages of the newspaper and bookies website and bet, only a fairly insignificant amount that i can afford to lose but as im sure you appreciate this is not the point, i let myself down badly and im not sure how much i actually care right now but i know i should care a lot, i should feel angry with myself but i don't...im not tempted to bet again or chase but just so annoyed that i bet after so long being successful...before anyone tells me to go to a meeting i have to say im a live in carer working 90 hours per week and sleeping at work 7 nights per week so truly no time to get to a meeting regardless of time or day...just need a wake up call or some wise words i guess,
thanks
John