12-05-2011, 06:12 AM
Barrieexgambler,
Thank you for your words of encouragement - they really mean so much to me.
Cannot get my head around the fact I am getting comfort from the enemy. Maybe the penny dropped and I have discoved that you are not enemies, but just unwell.
Taking one day at a time, still resenting the fact that I am seeking help for his problem, but find myself looking forward to next meeting.
Most of me wants to see him punished at these meetings, (The angry side) and resenting the fact that the meeting provided him with support.
Most of me hates the fact that his shoulders have dropped and he looks more relaxed.
All of me hates the fact he has slept well this week and eaten properly - for I wish I could.
A tiny piece of me understands -
I hate the fact that the balance of this will probably change, for I am a nice person really.
You guys (the ones I am trying to hate so much) have kept me going, and you will never know what you have done for me.xx
Thank you for your words of encouragement - they really mean so much to me.
Cannot get my head around the fact I am getting comfort from the enemy. Maybe the penny dropped and I have discoved that you are not enemies, but just unwell.
Taking one day at a time, still resenting the fact that I am seeking help for his problem, but find myself looking forward to next meeting.
Most of me wants to see him punished at these meetings, (The angry side) and resenting the fact that the meeting provided him with support.
Most of me hates the fact that his shoulders have dropped and he looks more relaxed.
All of me hates the fact he has slept well this week and eaten properly - for I wish I could.
A tiny piece of me understands -
I hate the fact that the balance of this will probably change, for I am a nice person really.
You guys (the ones I am trying to hate so much) have kept me going, and you will never know what you have done for me.xx