10-05-2011, 03:58 PM
Hi Scott some of your input makes sense there. Although I can appear to be very confident and out going some of the feelings you described may be present in me.
Saturday for instance I have just been paid etc I could go out with some wonderful friends and their children that i have had for 10 years instead i find my self playing roulette again after all the bad times in the past. it crosses my mind that if i win i can be the big man when i get there etc. Buy the drinks etc. Its almost like if i can turn up with £x in my pocket i will feel better about myself and dont leave the house until i have won and then dont even go because i have lost!. Even though these people i know really do like me for the person that i am as we have been friends since 11or so!
I feel those feelings also you mentioned. Anxiety, low self worth and angriness, i dont know why i feel angry. Are you saying that this is all linked and because of these feelings I then gamble and dont get these feelings because I gamble because that could make sense. Looking back on it now i seem to gamble quite alot when there is a social situation coming up. I am off for a stag do abroad next month and can easily afford it but spent double what I would take £ wise trying to win enough to take if that makes sense to have it for free.
Logically my actions dont make sense but you sound like someone who understands their actions now.
Any thoughts?
Saturday for instance I have just been paid etc I could go out with some wonderful friends and their children that i have had for 10 years instead i find my self playing roulette again after all the bad times in the past. it crosses my mind that if i win i can be the big man when i get there etc. Buy the drinks etc. Its almost like if i can turn up with £x in my pocket i will feel better about myself and dont leave the house until i have won and then dont even go because i have lost!. Even though these people i know really do like me for the person that i am as we have been friends since 11or so!
I feel those feelings also you mentioned. Anxiety, low self worth and angriness, i dont know why i feel angry. Are you saying that this is all linked and because of these feelings I then gamble and dont get these feelings because I gamble because that could make sense. Looking back on it now i seem to gamble quite alot when there is a social situation coming up. I am off for a stag do abroad next month and can easily afford it but spent double what I would take £ wise trying to win enough to take if that makes sense to have it for free.
Logically my actions dont make sense but you sound like someone who understands their actions now.
Any thoughts?