15-05-2011, 07:41 PM
Hi all.sorry i am having a rant.
i am sitting here aggitated and bored.all i can think of is gambleing.trying to watch tv.but have no intrest.
Had a wonderfull day yesterday one of my girls made her confirmation yesterday.
She handed me over five hundred to look after for her.
I am sorry to admitt the first thing that went through my mind was gambleing.
i gave the money to my wife.i havant sank that low.but it just shows what this illness can do to person.
Even after the pain i went trough after my last binge.i dam nearly lost my family.
Its still in my head the mistical big win.even after i posted numerous posts trying to warn people
And even though i now there is no chance of winning its all i can think about.my kids and my partner are curled up on the couch.
watching a film after having a wonderfull time.and i cant even enjoy this moment because of my addiction.
this is a really evil addiction.
i am sitting here aggitated and bored.all i can think of is gambleing.trying to watch tv.but have no intrest.
Had a wonderfull day yesterday one of my girls made her confirmation yesterday.
She handed me over five hundred to look after for her.
I am sorry to admitt the first thing that went through my mind was gambleing.
i gave the money to my wife.i havant sank that low.but it just shows what this illness can do to person.
Even after the pain i went trough after my last binge.i dam nearly lost my family.
Its still in my head the mistical big win.even after i posted numerous posts trying to warn people
And even though i now there is no chance of winning its all i can think about.my kids and my partner are curled up on the couch.
watching a film after having a wonderfull time.and i cant even enjoy this moment because of my addiction.
this is a really evil addiction.