13-07-2011, 11:19 PM
Thank you for your answer. It has meant a great deal to me!
I am far from where you have come. And my road has been different yet similar to yours.
To try to explain to you and to make me feel like you have understood me, I would need to be very open and take concrete examples from my life. I don´t know if that would serve any purpose though, except satisfying my own personal need of being seen and understood. And that is perhaps still the biggest pain of all, which I will have to let go.
Being open is not the bigger issue for me, rather in retrospect feeling ashamed for having been too open. I have always been told that I talk too much, I think too much, I feel too much.
I have been trying to reply to your answer now for a couple of days, but I feel that I get obsessive about it. My reply becomes too long and with too many intimate details about my life. I keep trying to find new ways of explaining and copying and pasting text around over and over again... <!-- s
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Therefore I am letting it go. For now.
Your answer, and me trying to reply, have given me new tools and I am have had some new insight in my behaviour and my emotions.
I haven´t thought about selfunderstanding, healing pains and selfgrowth for such a long time, turning it all off, or perhaps putting it on pause. And I felt so inspired reading your text because it reminded me of a way of thought that I used to have.
Thank you for sharing and awakening that part in me!
I received my GA books today, so I am going to start reading instead of writing for a while.
Tc and love for now
Paula
I am far from where you have come. And my road has been different yet similar to yours.
To try to explain to you and to make me feel like you have understood me, I would need to be very open and take concrete examples from my life. I don´t know if that would serve any purpose though, except satisfying my own personal need of being seen and understood. And that is perhaps still the biggest pain of all, which I will have to let go.
Being open is not the bigger issue for me, rather in retrospect feeling ashamed for having been too open. I have always been told that I talk too much, I think too much, I feel too much.
I have been trying to reply to your answer now for a couple of days, but I feel that I get obsessive about it. My reply becomes too long and with too many intimate details about my life. I keep trying to find new ways of explaining and copying and pasting text around over and over again... <!-- s
--><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt="" title="Smile" /><!-- s -->Therefore I am letting it go. For now.
Your answer, and me trying to reply, have given me new tools and I am have had some new insight in my behaviour and my emotions.
I haven´t thought about selfunderstanding, healing pains and selfgrowth for such a long time, turning it all off, or perhaps putting it on pause. And I felt so inspired reading your text because it reminded me of a way of thought that I used to have.
Thank you for sharing and awakening that part in me!
I received my GA books today, so I am going to start reading instead of writing for a while.
Tc and love for now
Paula