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My Story
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Hi London,

I just wanted to say a big YES. There are other people with similar if not identical problems as you have. Read some of the posts and you will see just how big the problems are for some people.
I can so relate to you. Me lying, and hating others who lie, the spending on gambling and then hating myself for it, not really caring if I win or lose, as long as I get that trance, isolated feeling which comes from gambling, not eating, spending a fortune on machines, but not wanting to spend a few coins on food. Oh yes, I know where you are because I was there 18 months ago. I couldn't stop myself. It was like an elastic tied to my middle. If I tried to walk past a bookies, it would pull at me stronger and stronger until I weakened and went in. Stuff the consequences! <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: -->

But I did just a few things that have transformed my life. <!-- sConfusedhock: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_eek.gif" alt="Confusedhock:" title="Shocked" /><!-- sConfusedhock: -->
1. Decided I had a problem and genuinely wanted to stop. I believe you are there already?
2. Admitted I have no power over this gambling thing. It controls me! Are you there yet?
3. Went to a GA meeting and continued to go every week if I could.

I realise it is a whole life problem and have now come to terms that I can NEVER gamble again. It was not about giving up for a week or month or year - just until the money was OK again, it was about recovering from my illness. Never again.

I tackle this illness one day at a time. By not gambling today (and I haven't) I make progress. Tomorrow I will not gamble. I will deal with the day after that when it comes.

It has kept me off since Oct 26th 2009 so far and I am so content, less angry, less prone to lying and I am starting to like myself. <!-- sBig Grin --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt="Big Grin" title="Very Happy" /><!-- sBig Grin -->

Trust me, you are not alone - and thousands of people find GA and meetings are the way to give strength to tackle this cr*p in our lives.

I hope this helps.

My name is Chris, and I am a compulsive gambler.
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