13-07-2011, 10:00 AM
Thank you both for sharing. Thank you Jess for believing in me. And thank you Craig for sharing you thoughts and feelings that are so similar to mine.
It´s true I don´t really know what images my relatives have of me. And I have always felt a strong need to prove myself to them, being different and being the youngiest one with too many thoughts and feelings according to them. Somehow I have always strived for their acceptance, as if they had the power to give me the right to exist. But that power isn´t theirs. It is my responsibility to heal within so that I won´t be dependent on them in that way anymore.
About my sister. I truly love her so much and I believe that eventually, when I am stronger, I won´t be limited by
my own shame and guilt and my feelings of disappointment towards her, and then we will be able to find our way back to each other. On a healthier level, in openness and honesty.
Love to all!
It´s true I don´t really know what images my relatives have of me. And I have always felt a strong need to prove myself to them, being different and being the youngiest one with too many thoughts and feelings according to them. Somehow I have always strived for their acceptance, as if they had the power to give me the right to exist. But that power isn´t theirs. It is my responsibility to heal within so that I won´t be dependent on them in that way anymore.
About my sister. I truly love her so much and I believe that eventually, when I am stronger, I won´t be limited by
my own shame and guilt and my feelings of disappointment towards her, and then we will be able to find our way back to each other. On a healthier level, in openness and honesty.
Love to all!