02-11-2011, 01:24 AM
Hi im a 21 year old female, have a great life, great partner, family, uni, job except my gambling problem is ruining all of these one by one.....
It started with the bingo and the table games, everynight, and a simple go on a slot machine in their and then become addicted. This now ha escalated whenever i entered the bingo. I gamble on sports, poker etc but in consideration and affordable. I work weekends and earn money each week, so i gamble and live for the day to gamble the next day. Am currently living with my boyfriend of 4 years and trying for a baby for the past year, its yet to happen.........I suppose going on the slots and getting that buzz releases a bit of the pain i have trapped up inside. Yet allthough i use all my money gambling, my parnter pays for everything, really looks after me and this is how i repay him by being selfish wasting all my money? I could sit on the slots in the bingo and win and win.........but why can't i take the win and leave? I keep going untill i put it all back in and lose.
Am currently in my final year off university, and am worried i wontt get my degree. I have missed lectures, deadlines, cause a have spent my bus fares, or am too busy gambling, or worrying about how much i have lost? I wish i could use all the time money and effort wasted on gambling on my life, and gaining my degree and my life with my partner.
Its so hard, and allthough i have been in denial i have finally come to admit i have a serious problem. I won a small poker game on the weekend, and lost every penny of that today on the slots. Now am left with nothing? What a waste? Imagine my partner knew exactly how much i am wasting? Worst part is i have been getting loans to fund my addiction and now struggling with how i will pay them, wonga? Wonga is easy assecible cash, so when am losing why not log on and get a loan to win back my money? Allthough i dont just lose more, now i owe so much am beyond desperate....I really need help before i destroy my life...<!-- s
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It started with the bingo and the table games, everynight, and a simple go on a slot machine in their and then become addicted. This now ha escalated whenever i entered the bingo. I gamble on sports, poker etc but in consideration and affordable. I work weekends and earn money each week, so i gamble and live for the day to gamble the next day. Am currently living with my boyfriend of 4 years and trying for a baby for the past year, its yet to happen.........I suppose going on the slots and getting that buzz releases a bit of the pain i have trapped up inside. Yet allthough i use all my money gambling, my parnter pays for everything, really looks after me and this is how i repay him by being selfish wasting all my money? I could sit on the slots in the bingo and win and win.........but why can't i take the win and leave? I keep going untill i put it all back in and lose.
Am currently in my final year off university, and am worried i wontt get my degree. I have missed lectures, deadlines, cause a have spent my bus fares, or am too busy gambling, or worrying about how much i have lost? I wish i could use all the time money and effort wasted on gambling on my life, and gaining my degree and my life with my partner.
Its so hard, and allthough i have been in denial i have finally come to admit i have a serious problem. I won a small poker game on the weekend, and lost every penny of that today on the slots. Now am left with nothing? What a waste? Imagine my partner knew exactly how much i am wasting? Worst part is i have been getting loans to fund my addiction and now struggling with how i will pay them, wonga? Wonga is easy assecible cash, so when am losing why not log on and get a loan to win back my money? Allthough i dont just lose more, now i owe so much am beyond desperate....I really need help before i destroy my life...<!-- s
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