31-05-2013, 10:06 AM
Hi Andy
I am not sure if you are the same Andy who used to post on here a few years back, you write very similarly anyway. However, it doesn't have to be a white-knuckle ride!
You wrote:
"Its always going to be on a knife edge,I cant be bothered to go to meetings even though they work,Im bored of going through exactly the same process every time."
The meetings do work, and I am sure you know that by ignoring them and trying to do it on your own, this way is destined to fail miserably. trust me when I say that however you feel right now you can feel a lot worse. This is a progressive illness. i don't mean the gambling itself, I mean the consequences of gambling.
The only thing that has worked for you is meetings! There is no reason why they cannot work again. It was spoken about in my meeting last night, how and why people break out often long periods of gambling. On page 6 of the orange book it mentions that 'the GA program will always work for anyone who wants to stop gambling'. If you have broken out then the chances are you were not working the program. Something I ask myself regularly is, am I doing enough. After all it is a self-help program. On page 10 of that book it mentions about a change from within is necessary and that it requires diligent effort. I often ask myself 'Am I putting in enough effort?' Quite often the resulting answer is no. And, it often is for others too.
Please go back to your meetings Andy. Don't be yet another addict defeated by this illness. You must find the strength from somewhere to face this problem, but don't try to do it on your own.
It doesn't have to be a white-knuckle ride!
Big Dave (Eastcote/Uxbridge)
I am not sure if you are the same Andy who used to post on here a few years back, you write very similarly anyway. However, it doesn't have to be a white-knuckle ride!
You wrote:
"Its always going to be on a knife edge,I cant be bothered to go to meetings even though they work,Im bored of going through exactly the same process every time."
The meetings do work, and I am sure you know that by ignoring them and trying to do it on your own, this way is destined to fail miserably. trust me when I say that however you feel right now you can feel a lot worse. This is a progressive illness. i don't mean the gambling itself, I mean the consequences of gambling.
The only thing that has worked for you is meetings! There is no reason why they cannot work again. It was spoken about in my meeting last night, how and why people break out often long periods of gambling. On page 6 of the orange book it mentions that 'the GA program will always work for anyone who wants to stop gambling'. If you have broken out then the chances are you were not working the program. Something I ask myself regularly is, am I doing enough. After all it is a self-help program. On page 10 of that book it mentions about a change from within is necessary and that it requires diligent effort. I often ask myself 'Am I putting in enough effort?' Quite often the resulting answer is no. And, it often is for others too.
Please go back to your meetings Andy. Don't be yet another addict defeated by this illness. You must find the strength from somewhere to face this problem, but don't try to do it on your own.
It doesn't have to be a white-knuckle ride!
Big Dave (Eastcote/Uxbridge)