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The Journey Begins
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88 days complete. They say 90 is needed to break the habit so taking one day at a time I have 2 days left to hold my nerve...and then I'll be cured forever.....

Oh wait!  STOP !!!!

90 days is ok....but cured? not a chance, I'll never be cured, I'll never be able to bet as a normal human being as I have no control in that environment. The last 88 days of abstinence and GA meetings have shown me, told me and pointed me in the right direction, to accept that I can never have another bet. Should I choose to willfully fold, then the experiences tell me I will fall further, faster and harder than at any point before.

You know what, that scares the heebejeebies out of me. And I've already hit my rock bottom. I never want to feel the way I did in early December 2017....I hope that I have now put down the spade so the hole cannot get any bigger and now it's about climbing my way out, I've made a little bit of progress in that regards, and I am proud of myself for the first time in my life.

I had a great GA meeting this last Sunday, I've found the regulars who go to the Sunday session to be extremely helpful, knowledgeable, challenging and now that I'm comfortable with them, I think upon them as my friends, but ones who help me to stay away from the dementors.

I've started to plan how I'm going to cope without my weekly GA meeting as my holiday is coming ever closer.

I've looked up where and when the local GA group is. This is a worldwide fellowship thankfully.
I've got a number of numbers from the Sunday session, and I will be sending them messages.
I will also have internet, intermittently so I'll be checking in on here too.

And finally, I am hoping to start steps in the next week or so on a formal basis, I want to put as much learning about me in place as I can as I want as many barriers to gambling in place as I can. Since stopping gambling, I have never been happier, one day at a time I'll continue fighting as I never want to return to the me of old.

The new me is much nicer to be around, and even my kids have said so.
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The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 09-01-2018, 08:30 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 13-01-2018, 09:46 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 17-01-2018, 04:43 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 23-01-2018, 09:17 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 24-01-2018, 11:18 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 01-02-2018, 09:44 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 13-02-2018, 05:29 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 13-02-2018, 05:47 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 20-02-2018, 10:51 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 28-02-2018, 12:07 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 28-02-2018, 12:28 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 06-03-2018, 10:41 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 12-03-2018, 11:19 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 20-03-2018, 10:48 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 27-03-2018, 06:36 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by smartie - 28-03-2018, 06:51 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 29-03-2018, 10:21 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 06-04-2018, 02:27 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 06-04-2018, 03:21 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 19-04-2018, 06:48 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 01-05-2018, 07:58 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 01-05-2018, 09:08 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 09-05-2018, 12:49 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 09-05-2018, 01:49 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 09-05-2018, 04:09 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 30-05-2018, 09:46 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 31-05-2018, 11:03 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 03-07-2018, 11:48 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 07-07-2018, 01:40 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 09-07-2018, 08:41 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 19-07-2018, 09:49 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 01-08-2018, 09:22 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Simmo - 01-08-2018, 09:39 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 02-09-2018, 08:25 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 18-09-2018, 07:43 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Chris_b - 18-09-2018, 10:39 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 11-10-2018, 10:17 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by Chris_b - 12-10-2018, 09:15 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 30-12-2018, 09:48 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by shoebox - 07-01-2019, 12:30 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 20-06-2019, 06:37 AM
RE: The Journey Begins - by StrengthToStop - 20-05-2020, 02:45 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by shoebox - 21-05-2020, 08:06 PM
RE: The Journey Begins - by gadaveuk - 04-07-2020, 05:48 AM

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