11-09-2019, 10:57 AM
Hi
By understanding my emotional triggers of my pains fears frustrations loneliness and boredom.
Each time I went back to my addiction was a lesson if I was willing to learn from them.
I am non religious and yet I do embrace spiritual values.
Each time I escape from people life and situations I get weaker and weaker.
The recovery program was a place where my healing would start if I was willing to heal from the pains of my past.
With each lie comes more fears.
The recovery program was a place where I would become aware of how emotionally vulnerable I was.
Every time I worked for my money and the gave it away or though it away I was causing myself more and more pain.
Some how thinking that money would heal my suffering.
I was like a rat in a wheel going faster an faster getting no where I was wasting time money and relationships.
The addictions and obsessions were just the symptoms that I was very emotionally vulnerable.
Only when I admitted to myself that I was being very unhealthy could I change from my self destructive path in life.
No one could convince I was unhealthy.
No one could stop me gambling.
No one could stop me from me hurting myself.
I was with out faith and hope in myself.
Each time I said to myself oh who cares any way, I was giving up all faith and hope in myself.
The recovery program was a place where I would see and feel myself in other people.
My unhealthy reactions to people life and situations indicated how much pain I was burying and suppressing in myself.
The last date I gambled is less and less important.
It is how healthy I was today that counts.
Were my actions and my words healthy towards myself and healthy towards other people.
Today I am not alone.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
By understanding my emotional triggers of my pains fears frustrations loneliness and boredom.
Each time I went back to my addiction was a lesson if I was willing to learn from them.
I am non religious and yet I do embrace spiritual values.
Each time I escape from people life and situations I get weaker and weaker.
The recovery program was a place where my healing would start if I was willing to heal from the pains of my past.
With each lie comes more fears.
The recovery program was a place where I would become aware of how emotionally vulnerable I was.
Every time I worked for my money and the gave it away or though it away I was causing myself more and more pain.
Some how thinking that money would heal my suffering.
I was like a rat in a wheel going faster an faster getting no where I was wasting time money and relationships.
The addictions and obsessions were just the symptoms that I was very emotionally vulnerable.
Only when I admitted to myself that I was being very unhealthy could I change from my self destructive path in life.
No one could convince I was unhealthy.
No one could stop me gambling.
No one could stop me from me hurting myself.
I was with out faith and hope in myself.
Each time I said to myself oh who cares any way, I was giving up all faith and hope in myself.
The recovery program was a place where I would see and feel myself in other people.
My unhealthy reactions to people life and situations indicated how much pain I was burying and suppressing in myself.
The last date I gambled is less and less important.
It is how healthy I was today that counts.
Were my actions and my words healthy towards myself and healthy towards other people.
Today I am not alone.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham