Hi
Is it healthy to live in fear of a virus.
Do I stay in doors because of my fears, or do I live in doors because I value myself.
The thing I can do is get down my needs lists and my wants and get focused on healthy habits.
It was never healthy for me to sit around and do nothing with my time.
This time can be used to over come my fears of procrastination and holding back from getting things done.
Can I change the bug, can I make other people respect me.
It is not the easy option to go out and when getting in public places we both put on our faces bacteria face masks.
We both wash our hands on a regular basis.
We both wash our hands on going out with bacteria cleansers, then on our return back home we both wash our hands with bacteria cleansers.
There was a time when I abused my body in so many ways.
The sad fact that just one unhealthy habit cost me over 3,650 a year, no one could stop me smoking, no one could stop me gambling, those both had to be my own choice.
I took inventory of much money my gambling addiction cost me, I use to be so angry with every one more so myself.
We have been in doors now for over 5 weeks.
We have not met with my son our grand children and not mixed with other people.
Before my recovery I was a very emotionally vulnerable person.
A emotionally vulnerable person is not a weak person, in fact the opposite often addicts have already survived many kinds of abuse or neglect.
Become a healthy person, to no longer be an emotionally vulnerable person I am able to have a voice and stand up for myself from a place of peace.
Any rage I would have today would indicate that that my inner child is not healed in a healthy way.
I no longer fear emotional intimacy.
I understand that my addictions and my obsessions were just the symptoms that I was vulnerable.
I no longer need to escape life people or life today.
Even though I am not connected with many people in a physical way I am more connected in emotional ways.
The recovery is only a manual to healthy way of living, if I choose to ignore the recovery program I am only cheating myself.
For me the recovery is slow baby steps in finding a healthier way of life.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham