05-01-2012, 01:22 AM
lindylou Wrote:this is the first time i have visited this website and i love this poem. I'm not sure if i am addicted to gambling? but i do know i have spent too much, way too much money this month. Is this a sign of addiction? i have won quite alot, a number of times, and i should have just withdrawn, but i continued to gamble each time until i had nothing left. I am then tempted to have another go with the intention of stopping when i am winning, but then i just carry on until i have lost it all and i feel awful.
Lindylou in my humble opinion once we loss control and just carry on regardless of any consequences and it causes us pain it's 'addiction' it's more maybe subtle than drug addition or being an alcoholic as there's a physical bill to pay with that one!!
Mine started of going a bingo with my mum I immediately took to it like duck to water because it was an escape during the play numbers machines I was totally obsessed with the next win (it suppresed any emotions I had going on) so I continued to loose from one machine to the next until I was broke, you see my primary addiction was drugs & alcohol and the chaos life style that comes with that hurting your loved ones neglecting your kids ect but this sneaky one is subtle but brings me to the same place as drugs did all those years ago, lying, manipulating and all behaviours I have addressed since being clean and sober but where after such traumas caused me to address that problem this gambling does it subtly I'm gonna go to a GA meeting and work like I did with my other addictions and have faith that everything will be ok one day at a time good luck with yours love xx