13-06-2011, 10:56 AM
John,
I just want to say thankyou! Thankyou for a wonderfull post that mirrored a story of mine but most importantly thankyou for making me wake up.
My GF knows I used to have a "compulsive disorder" and had stopped and yet last night I walked in and played poker for money at there home.
Not much but it was the thought proccess!!
In fact I have been witholding from my usual posts as I went away recently and played in the casino for 4hrs.
More out of shame for myself as I was very strong indeed.
This addiction never leaves you and I know I dont really want to go into that mission again hell bent on money being my motive, come nervous breakdown which i suffered also before.
Anyway part of the recovery is admission when guilt and then take a day at a time.
Thanks John...
Barrie
I just want to say thankyou! Thankyou for a wonderfull post that mirrored a story of mine but most importantly thankyou for making me wake up.
My GF knows I used to have a "compulsive disorder" and had stopped and yet last night I walked in and played poker for money at there home.
Not much but it was the thought proccess!!
In fact I have been witholding from my usual posts as I went away recently and played in the casino for 4hrs.
More out of shame for myself as I was very strong indeed.
This addiction never leaves you and I know I dont really want to go into that mission again hell bent on money being my motive, come nervous breakdown which i suffered also before.
Anyway part of the recovery is admission when guilt and then take a day at a time.
Thanks John...
Barrie