My husband is a gambler - HELP!

[osciejames]

hello. in the same boat as many of you. my husband is in prison due to stealing huge amounts from his workplace and blowing it in one day at the bookies. he then took an overdose. i was in bits worrying about our two sons, 3 and 6 yrs. he hasn't lived with us since it happened. i found out that over our 10yrs together he gambled all the time. i thought he had a brain tumour as he said he kept having blackouts. no he didn't, he was in the bookies. i don't get how he needed to gamble? putting it in front of our family. i'm a loving, caring wife and haven't done a thing wrong. well, he should be out around 18th December. By then, i would have to live in rented living as the state is after recouping the money he stole. With this and other debt, loans, credit cards etc, the house will go.
so, i'm stuck as a single mum feeling angry, sad and lonely. i don't trust my husband. but have feelings of love for him. family tell me to leave him. confused!!! got an 8 page letter today but, my emtions are so shut down its hard to read.