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Hi everyone, i have just found this site today as i am at my lowest ever an need someone to talk too. i am married with two small children, i am at home with them at the moment as i am looking for work after my materntiy leave. i have gambled on/off for years, nothing big just small bets online, recently i have gambled more and with our overdraft and whatever money is left in my account is gone, have also borrowed my mums money and its gone too, thinking i would win the next time, but that never came. I really hate myself just now, so much for what i am doing to my family! I can't believe that i can do it, when i am doing it i just cant help myslef, i dont htink of the consequences at the time. My husbands knows nothing of this, i have covered up everything that i have done, i also have credit cards which he doesnt know about as i have tried to take the pressure of him as he works long days and is supporting us all. I have spent all of our savings, overdraft which he will find out about when he checks the phonebanking in the next few days, its only matter of time, normally i ahve won by now and that covers it, but i ahvent and have no money left to gamble, if i did i would still!!!!!!! i know he will leave as he has major issues regarding money, he will not understand what i have done. I really dont know what to say, i dont sleep, i dont eat, i am a nervous wreck and its all brought upon by myself.