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Hi, im new on here today too as i am sick and tired of feeling sick through gambling. Ive checked out my local meeting locations and there are a couple around 16 miles from me. I am no stranger to meetings and steps being a recovering member of AA (nine years without a drink) yet gambling has always been a part of me that ive never let go. It stems back to the days when my dad was alive and we used to go to the amusments back on pennies then! Well, ive had a day today where i feel physically sick, hundreds of pounds on FOB Terminals and what a fool i feel i am; its time to do something and i know i cant do it alone. Just by talking about it on here is helping me. Ive kidded myself i can give up gambling and my small bets wont hurt, but it is hurting, the best are increasing and like Fiona ive been chasing my losses, doubling up the bets and getting. My wife dont know too about my gambling, its a secret and so far i havent dipped into our joint account. Im using my slush fund bank account but i still feel its sickenly dishonest as that money, although mine, could be spent on my kids and family instead. I gamble when im happy, gamble when im sad and even when im up i keep going and going as it it isnt real....but it is and thats when i see im flat broke again...i just keep going and i dont know why?? NEED HELP, thanks for listening to me. M