25-02-2010, 08:36 PM
how sad does the title sound? im female 33 , and have been playing the sad ball game, deposting small amounts , but these add up , today, i stopped, i could have gone on and on deposting but im not gonna do it, i want to stop, iv only been doing it 3 or 4 month, but never have deposited more than a few pounds a week until the last few weeks, its gotta stop i have 3 children. the thing is ,Its so easy to do, my youngest child is 7 month so i end up getting bored and bang' there i go and befor i know it, it has gone, i feel awful. Its a con and you'll never win, i know that but dont know why im doing it. I also live at the seaside (east yorks coast) and have accsess to fruit machines, again after my shopping i get bored (or an exscuse to go in) and go in (my mum babysits i dont take baby in there) i can go in on average once-twice a week.if i win i do go. its sad, its scummy, i hate myself for doing it. I know i can stop so i dont know why i still do it? iv deleted my bookmarks for bingo but dont know what to do when' i fancy the evil flutter <!-- s:? --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" /><!-- s:? -->