06-03-2010, 10:18 PM
Friday was fine, I came straight home from work and didn't gamble a penny.
However this morning my Mum asked if I wanted to go to bingo tonight. I initially said 'I'm OK, got no money' (She doesn't know I've gambled it all away, she thinks I've been locked out of my bank account for the moment), but she offered to lend me some so I agreed to go as otherwise she may have been suspicious as to why I didn't want to go so much.
The bingo was fine, nothing won but it isn't too much to play. Again I got drawn to the slots, initially I had a small win but it didn't last long. By the time I had walked out of the bingo, I had lost the 'loan' from my mum and also an additional amount of money which I withdrew from my bank without her knowing (Making me overdrawn which will mean a fee as they're still checking details to let me in to my savings account and I have no money from elsewhere to bail me out this time).
I got home and have found the tune the bingo hall play (To announce the intervals are over) on YouTube. Listening to this now brings back flashbacks of the night and is making me quite upset. <!-- s:| --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_neutral.gif" alt=":|" title="Neutral" /><!-- s:| -->
I thought I was starting to make progress but this has knocked me right back to square one. It almost feels like I gambled more than I knew I could today due to the lack of gambling the past couple of days building up inside me and getting released tonight.
My mum commented 'it is a lot of money to lose' in reference to the fact I lost the money she lent me, not knowing I had withdrawn a matching amount from my bank. The money she lent me was around 1% of the money I have lost gambling over the past 3 months.
However this morning my Mum asked if I wanted to go to bingo tonight. I initially said 'I'm OK, got no money' (She doesn't know I've gambled it all away, she thinks I've been locked out of my bank account for the moment), but she offered to lend me some so I agreed to go as otherwise she may have been suspicious as to why I didn't want to go so much.
The bingo was fine, nothing won but it isn't too much to play. Again I got drawn to the slots, initially I had a small win but it didn't last long. By the time I had walked out of the bingo, I had lost the 'loan' from my mum and also an additional amount of money which I withdrew from my bank without her knowing (Making me overdrawn which will mean a fee as they're still checking details to let me in to my savings account and I have no money from elsewhere to bail me out this time).
I got home and have found the tune the bingo hall play (To announce the intervals are over) on YouTube. Listening to this now brings back flashbacks of the night and is making me quite upset. <!-- s:| --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_neutral.gif" alt=":|" title="Neutral" /><!-- s:| -->
I thought I was starting to make progress but this has knocked me right back to square one. It almost feels like I gambled more than I knew I could today due to the lack of gambling the past couple of days building up inside me and getting released tonight.
My mum commented 'it is a lot of money to lose' in reference to the fact I lost the money she lent me, not knowing I had withdrawn a matching amount from my bank. The money she lent me was around 1% of the money I have lost gambling over the past 3 months.