26-05-2010, 09:10 PM
Thanks again for all your continued support Roy and Dave and everybody else.This is the hardest it has ever been,despite the fact that ive been lower in the gutter before.I have managed to stay clean for 3 days,but the guilt and anger from last weeks mental binge,is clearly at the forefront of my mind.Im livid with myself so much so I go around head butting doors to try and drum it in to my dumb head.I am sick,sick,sick to complete death of being a loser and losing all my very hard earned cash and possessions to the stinking bookies.I hate them and hate the fact that they and the gambling has the power.Anyway I have stayed clean for 3 days,for what its worth.I will just try and get through today and if I wake up tommorrow I will see what happens.Andy