29-05-2010, 08:11 PM
Thanks again Roy for your continued support.I am trying to speak to a member a couple of times a week.But I find it very difficult talking to anybody.I dont like telling anybody really.I hate it and more often than not I just keep it to myself and when I go to the meetings I say as little as possible.
I hate being like this and going into a shell but that's how things have got now.I used to be a fairly confident type of guy and would think absolutely nothing of going out on my own,although it bothered me.I used to go out partying at weekends on my own if nobody wanted to play and it wouldn't worry me because I would always go and start chatting or just generally have fun.But that person has died now,or so it would seem as now I'm never in the mood to go out.All down to gambling I would say.
Yes, I will try to set achievable goals because right now I can't see beyond the very next day let alone further than that.It worries me every day when I wake upas to what misery that day will bring and the loneliness of another slog of a day,and what for?What do I bother for?I really don't know.Anyway, thanks for your words.
I hate being like this and going into a shell but that's how things have got now.I used to be a fairly confident type of guy and would think absolutely nothing of going out on my own,although it bothered me.I used to go out partying at weekends on my own if nobody wanted to play and it wouldn't worry me because I would always go and start chatting or just generally have fun.But that person has died now,or so it would seem as now I'm never in the mood to go out.All down to gambling I would say.
Yes, I will try to set achievable goals because right now I can't see beyond the very next day let alone further than that.It worries me every day when I wake upas to what misery that day will bring and the loneliness of another slog of a day,and what for?What do I bother for?I really don't know.Anyway, thanks for your words.