30-05-2010, 09:21 AM
Thanks again Roy for your support.Unfortunately I couldnt read your private message as I have forgotton mypassword or for whatever reason I cant get in to it.Things dont get easier this week,in fact ive felt worse each day as my anger and rage at myself is off the scale.I hate myself for what I did.I had gone 10 whole months and not gambled,then I just threw it all away in a couple of hours in a stinking,hell hole bookies and they ALWAYS gain the day.All that I worked my backside off for in those 10 months I just blew away and as usual,now got nothing,AGAIN.Its happened many,many times before,just that this time I hadnt gone so long without a bet and I had got relatively straight with finances.Now the pain of being ridiculously in much bigger debt,breaks my bones and destroys my mind set because ive got to go and work 20 times harder to put all that straight again.What a dickwod and twat I am,and I know it.