03-11-2010, 12:35 PM
hi names jerry - am a compulsive gambler ; here i write stuck at home on week of from work , no money , minimal food to last till payday - no car to go anywhere !! just asking myself how it has come to this low level at my age of 41 ; 25 years of this pathetic way of living .. living in debt , borrowing ,spending every penny ,every thought ,every plans on this gambling desease - waking up at 3am with anxiety to check a late football game on the pc - which ends in desperation when lost .. well get mad & bet again .. cant go on like this .. got to admit defeat , have lost & cannot win ..ever ; thanks for reading