23-11-2010, 12:41 AM
Glenn,
You sound young so good you got to this desease early but I am going to tell you that you have started something that will be with you for a long time ie forever.
I hear your story loud and proud my ex GF used to call me where are you, ignore, ignore, many times every week, I was fruit machine nutcase!! My mum spent years of worrying!!!
I think for us compulsive gamblers sometimes it is so so easy to replapse, we know after we have done a binge that its wrong, we feel low and come clean but complacency is a word I use in this as its very easy to get into the "I can control this, oh I won" situation that ultimately leads to disaster.
I live my life afraid...four years nearly clean and I still worry, worry that one day, one time, I will be in a place where my guard is down. I have seen many CGs who at 50 have NOTHING...unfortunately family are no longer around, GFs gone and past, wives, families destroyed and yet I have a big heart, im a good man.
GA made me see the light, gave me a path to follow, but I have to follow that path forever because I know one small slip and I am back to my destructive ways.
Well done for being mature and open and setting your stall out.
Life unfortunatly is one long path and I hope you follow the same one I am trying to do.
Best wishes.
Barrie
You sound young so good you got to this desease early but I am going to tell you that you have started something that will be with you for a long time ie forever.
I hear your story loud and proud my ex GF used to call me where are you, ignore, ignore, many times every week, I was fruit machine nutcase!! My mum spent years of worrying!!!
I think for us compulsive gamblers sometimes it is so so easy to replapse, we know after we have done a binge that its wrong, we feel low and come clean but complacency is a word I use in this as its very easy to get into the "I can control this, oh I won" situation that ultimately leads to disaster.
I live my life afraid...four years nearly clean and I still worry, worry that one day, one time, I will be in a place where my guard is down. I have seen many CGs who at 50 have NOTHING...unfortunately family are no longer around, GFs gone and past, wives, families destroyed and yet I have a big heart, im a good man.
GA made me see the light, gave me a path to follow, but I have to follow that path forever because I know one small slip and I am back to my destructive ways.
Well done for being mature and open and setting your stall out.
Life unfortunatly is one long path and I hope you follow the same one I am trying to do.
Best wishes.
Barrie