01-04-2011, 06:51 AM
Mike - thanks for the reply.
What you say makes alot of sense. I guess I know deep down that even losing just a small amount on racing on a Saturday can result in me going crazy later on. And it's not as if I would desperately miss that small amount every fortnight or so. The problem with me, personally, is (and this might be a running theme with other addicts) I am very competitive and almost can't stand 'losing' no matter what the amount and like to put that right. That's where the trouble starts.
Anyway, I told my partner last night. She knew I had issues, but didn't know the full story. I explained that I had been on here and want to actively seek help and support. It was quite emotional, but it needed to be and I feel liberated now (as well as hungover).
She is very understanding and has a habit of always saying the right thing (I, of course, don't deserve her to be so understanding). I will now 'tick' the calender each day I don't gamble. The National next week will be a test.
All the best Mike - hopefully we'll get there
Chris
What you say makes alot of sense. I guess I know deep down that even losing just a small amount on racing on a Saturday can result in me going crazy later on. And it's not as if I would desperately miss that small amount every fortnight or so. The problem with me, personally, is (and this might be a running theme with other addicts) I am very competitive and almost can't stand 'losing' no matter what the amount and like to put that right. That's where the trouble starts.
Anyway, I told my partner last night. She knew I had issues, but didn't know the full story. I explained that I had been on here and want to actively seek help and support. It was quite emotional, but it needed to be and I feel liberated now (as well as hungover).
She is very understanding and has a habit of always saying the right thing (I, of course, don't deserve her to be so understanding). I will now 'tick' the calender each day I don't gamble. The National next week will be a test.
All the best Mike - hopefully we'll get there
Chris