17-05-2011, 12:25 PM
I have been an addicted gambler betting on everything there is all my life! Whats worse is my dad is also an addicted gambler and I saw how this drug killed the family, yet I am doing the exact same thing without hesitation. Everytime I get paid or receive any money, it goes straight on gambling. I am now in constant debt have the worst possible credit rating and on the border of losing my love! But today from 1.00pm till the rest of my life I will be strong and not gamble, will be going to meetings when I can and banning myself from all online sites! I lost all my savings today (money that was going to be a deposit for a house) and cried for about 2hours, I have wasted too much of my life thinking I can beat the bookies and casino's, hopefully my mind will stay clear and focused and this really will be the first day of the rest of my life x